I’ve had a great month off, relaxing, being at home and just simple living.

Working on film sets – all the time – has tired me out a little, when I got back from the last set- the thought of going back made me deeply anxious. I had a few weeks of ‘what’s the point in all this’, working for other people, making films, what am I getting from it.

I’ve learnt a lot this past year freelancing, I’ve spent more time working away than doing anything at all. So I started to do things when I got back I painted a picture, I went running, I joined a martial art class, I’ve written a lot, I done a lot thinking and I’ve came to a conclusion.

I’m not going to Script supervise on sets anymore. It’s a bit of a leap back since this is a skill I’ve spent a lot of time trying to master on film sets. It has got me into a professional circle within the industry and I’ve learnt a lot from living on film sets.

However I wanted to work on British film sets and it seems that the majority of sets I’m on are trying to make Hollywood type films in order to make money;  which would be ok if it wasn’t for the fact that the majority pay people poorly.

(The paying people poorly thing really gets to me, it seems no matter what the budget the people at the bottom aren’t paid, instead they work for free justified under the impression of getting work experience. A cycle of unpaid work that many people get stuck in)

I disagree that whatever the budget most of it should be given to a lead actor; when the rest of the cast and crew struggle to make a living working for less than minimum wage. It’s happened on a few features I’ve been on before. I understand that low budgets are needed in order for people to step up; I have nothing against low budgets.

(When I’m given an awful film script to read and have to listen to confused directors and producers think it’ll win awards.)

I’m not happy with the film industry at the moment. Where are all these beautiful films? The British film industry is in stagnation. Perhaps greedy producers and wide eyed directors are to blame. I can’t be on some sets anymore; I’m no good sitting there disagreeing and It’s only been in my head but now it’s time for a change.

And perhaps it mightn’t work but I have some ideas and I’m starting a business of my own. I guess working for others on film sets wasn’t for me.  I don’t want to make Hollywood films after all and that is the only route I see myself heading if I stay where I am.

So it is a massive risk what I’m planning but it will be fun.